Went to church tonight...got an amazing message from pastor M which kinda answered my questions.
I'm asking myself what is really my purpose? aaaaaaand booom! I got my answer...LISTEN! That's the message, but is someone going to show me the way? No?! whaaat? why when how? LOL
At the end what matters really is what my heart and soul is telling me right now...be an instrument of change ohwa!!!! Me? that's so freakin deep man! So can I do it? Am I up to the challenge of setting up a program to help ? Baby steps just baby steps, okay this christmas just a few hundred dollars to save NO SHOPPING!!!! I mean it!
So if I go through with my reaching out to change then I have to stay but can I handle 1-2 more confusing years at work? Okay okay I gotta have a job to finance this plan got it!
Sunday, October 31, 2010
empty...
Just woke up...hmm I feel cold. Why is it so quiet did I forget to turn off the air conditioner ? Weird I can't hear lola or mama's voice? Opened my eyes looked around...stupid! You left home 4 years ago!!!
I have to remind myself yet again I'm living alone in the cold white north!!!
Can't rest my soul lately...Did I do the right thing? Venture out on my own? Am I really happy with how my career is going? Do I love my job? Hell yeah! I can buy anything I want without asking money from mader or pader...But why do I feel empty? Why do I feel I have to do something? Am I going to live like this forever?
Huh! echo!!!! I'll try to busy my confused mind..online shopping? WOW look at that bag and shoes ooh lalala! paypal paypal paypal...hold on wait? !!!!!!! Do I really need it? Alright no I DO NOT NEED IT I WON'T DIE WITHOUT A NEW BAG...hmm I'll just use my extra money for a more worthwhile cause.
Christmas is around the corner, ALA! I didn't start to fill my "BALIKBAYAN BOX" and "techy" I remembered asked me if I needed the bubble wraps for my box filling this Christmas.
Ding! head lights on!!! este light bulb pala LOL. I haven't done charity work lately? brilliaaaaaaant, I'll save up money for pa-Christmas. Better contact "OINK2" if she wants to volunteer since she's busy doing nothing lately hehehehe
I have to remind myself yet again I'm living alone in the cold white north!!!
Can't rest my soul lately...Did I do the right thing? Venture out on my own? Am I really happy with how my career is going? Do I love my job? Hell yeah! I can buy anything I want without asking money from mader or pader...But why do I feel empty? Why do I feel I have to do something? Am I going to live like this forever?
Huh! echo!!!! I'll try to busy my confused mind..online shopping? WOW look at that bag and shoes ooh lalala! paypal paypal paypal...hold on wait? !!!!!!! Do I really need it? Alright no I DO NOT NEED IT I WON'T DIE WITHOUT A NEW BAG...hmm I'll just use my extra money for a more worthwhile cause.
Christmas is around the corner, ALA! I didn't start to fill my "BALIKBAYAN BOX" and "techy" I remembered asked me if I needed the bubble wraps for my box filling this Christmas.
Ding! head lights on!!! este light bulb pala LOL. I haven't done charity work lately? brilliaaaaaaant, I'll save up money for pa-Christmas. Better contact "OINK2" if she wants to volunteer since she's busy doing nothing lately hehehehe
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